Seasons in The Sun.

Today I listened to "Seasons in The Sun". A "Westlife" song from '99. It quite makes my eyes wet somehow.. I really like this song, as I always imagine if anyone from my family or friends died. I know it's a bad habit, but I'm just trying to make myself to be prepared to anything that will happen. Or I often imagine that if me myself died, what should I do? Will I go to heaven? Will I go to hell? Or maybe I can accompany my family in the Earth but unseen? I want the latest one, so that I can still see them although they can't see me, but it's (just cried somehow :'( ). I know it's really not realistic, but people dying is a real thing.. :( . I know there is something called peacefully death, and I want something like that, instead of dying in a horror because of some murderer or kidnapper or drunk driver. hahaha..
Sorry, this post is really emotional, I should just close it here.

Thanks,
Fai